Monday, August 24, 2009

Sadistic me

For some reason, this picture makes me inexplicably happy.

Two years ago, before I recognized my dominance, I would have been shocked and appalled to see this picture. One year ago, before I truly embraced my inner sadist, I would have been intrigued. Six months ago, I would have had a morbid fascination with the photo. Even three months ago I would have been making a shopping list ... wooden dowels, rubber bands, chain, metal ring ...

Now it simply makes me happy.

I guess you could say that learning that I'm a sadist has been a bit of a journey for me. From the pride I first experienced when I saw my hand print on the inside of 6's thigh the first time we played, maybe I knew the path would lead this way.


Truth be told, I never would have guessed in a million years how much I'd enjoy seeing others in pain as well as inflicting it.


  1. If it makes you happy, I can say your sub would be lucky to have the opportunity fulfill your desire.

  2. Miss Lilyana found something useful to do with those 'bits'. looks sort of artistic actually!

  3. I wish I could take the credit for this photo but, alas, I cannot. I found it on

    It does provide some inspiration for me though hehehe!