As I explore BDSM, I'm finding that my interests are even more diverse than I had anticipated when I started down this path. I am nothing if not sensual in my Domination style and yet, as I explore various things, I am finding I'm more of a sadist than I imagined I could be.
I enjoy CBT. I like hurting men in that way. I admit it.
CBT is Cock and Ball Torture, right? Or is it really torture?
I'm not sure how other Dommes handle CBT. I can only tell you how I do things and what my sluts tell me when I ask for feedback.
They love it.
But maybe the reason they love it is that it's about a combination of torture and pleasure. CBTP perhaps.
There is little I enjoy more than stroking and/or licking a dripping hard cock to the point of nearly cumming and then smacking it soundly with a riding crop. I love the contrast, pleasure to pain, moans of delight to gasps of shocking pain.
I could go on and on about the many ways I inflict both pleasure and pain on a nice scrotum and penis. But I wouldn't want to give away all my secrets. ;) Suffice to say, there is an adequate mixture of pain and pleasure.
One sub, pk, who is no lover of pain, once told me that he'd endure whatever I wanted to dish out as long as he could see the joyful expression on my face while I did it. Another, my Dom friend, said he feels like taking the pain means he gets the pleasure, not the least of which is ensuring I'm having a great time.
Today I was playing with my FMT, the vanilla guy I've been dating for nearly 6 months. I edged him for a bit, bringing him to the point of cumming over and over. Then, when I could take it no more I sat in his lap for my own pleasure before he came. Afterwards we were discussing the edging and I told him I wished I'd had my riding crop handy so I could smack his cock just as he reached the edge.
He was surprised, I think, to know that I might use a combination of something so pleasurable with something painful. But I think it provided a moment of clarity as to why a man would actually enjoy CBT.
Who knows. Maybe my FMT will let me try out my crop on his cock and balls. Until then, I suppose I'll continue to enjoy CBT on my sluts. Oh who am I kidding? I doubt I'd stop torturing my sluts just because my FMT let me torture him too.